千羽神殿

sometimes, you fear yourself more than anything else.

it's only today that i realised the reason behind my tears every time i watch the recording of a natural disaster.
behind the rage, there is a crying soul.

男儿好剑，
剑利事利。
剑钝则愁，
谓天不佑。
剑利亦苦，
何处可舞？
英雄利剑，
鬼神齐哭。
一将功成，
万骨皆枯！

人，需要多少东西才能生活？
一天有得吃就已经足够。
穿的，用的，住的，只不过是一种奢侈。
因为不迫切需要，所以也无法从中得到莫大的满足。
拼命挣扎，依然不能逃离空虚的事实。
不实质的需求，怎能用物质来填补？
想要的……只不过是一个可以安眠的地方。
母亲的肚子里……
朋友的笑声里……
爱人的怀里……
安静的坟墓里……

没想到下一次写博客是在这么久之后……
最近还真是忙到焦头烂额啊。
发现我和朋友对谈的题材有见底的趋势，陷入恐慌中，拼命的想在多找点趣闻来读。却不记得上次去图书馆是几时……
纳闷……
顺带一提，我的电脑已经3星期开不了facebook了！谁来帮帮我！！！！

到最后，还是没有因为当兵而改变。
再一次开始写网上日记，不过应该已经没人再看了……

最近在兵营里迷上了运动出汗的感觉，喜欢全身滑得像泥鳅。但不喜欢汗臭味。
没事就跑跑，运动运动也不错！

tonight is scary....... T.T

给人一句赞美，给他美好一天。
给人一个拥抱，让他感受温暖。
不要在意别人的目光，尽情跳自己的舞。
忘掉做过的事，无悔活在现在。
笑吧！让大家跟着你笑……
哭吧！让大家跟着你哭……
踏在梦的碎片上微笑着迎来明天。

read the title.

凤凰，是指东方神话中的大鸟，掌管风（山海经）和其他鸟类。
朱雀，是指四方兽中南方属火的鸟类。
不死鸟，是指埃及古神话中拥有永恒生命的鸟。
三者不同！

不死鸟可以活500年，但它衰老时变会四处搜寻珍贵草药为重生做准备。它把草药都堆在一棵树上，做成一个巢。坐在巢中，它用感恩的心和无比虔诚的态度高声对这太阳咏唱，咏唱太阳的光辉，祈求再一次的生命。阳光渐渐集中到它声上，燃烧它苍老的躯体，它并不停止对太阳的赞美，直到它 化为灰烬。从灰烬中，它将获得重生。

凤凰是司风的大鸟，吉祥的象征。传说中它只在盛世才出现在人间。它同时也是鸟类的君王，还教会了百鸟造巢的方法。凤凰和鸳鸯一样，采用了古代不盛行的一夫一妻制，因此也成为一种浪漫的象征。不过，只有“百鸟朝凰”没有“百鸟朝凤”，可见鸟类基本上还是母系社会，一夫一妻制由此看来便成了理所当然的了。

朱雀是只红色的大鸟，属火。常被画成全身是火的样子，可信度不高。人家青龙属木也没有全身长叶子。同样的，麒麟属土不吐石头，白虎属金不吐雷，没理由说朱雀可以吐出火来。其实关于朱雀的传说少得可怜，如果有的话可以和我分享。

反正都说到鸟了，比翼鸟是不可不谈的。比翼鸟是天生残疾，虽然有头有身就是缺条胳膊少条腿外加少只眼睛。全部缺在一边，但比翼是成双出生的，所以穷其一声它都得用跳的寻找另一半，找到时中可以比翼双飞。但是神话中比翼双飞时会刮起大风下起大雨还打雷。所以人类就拼命追杀这种动物，以为它们是天地不容之兽。由我看，不如说是比翼鸟寻找另一半所付出的努力惊天地、泣鬼神。双飞之日连天地都被感动了。是一种认可吧……不过累得它们被追杀…… =（

YAY! 2 NEW KITTENS IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD!

When i was taking 855 home with victor today, the bus break down at Mcrietche area. The bus door won't open unless operated manually, personaly i don't see a problem with that but the driver insists that we take another bus instead.

the next few buses are jammed full of people going home at the rush hour, so much so that most of them could not even open their door when they reachs the bus stop, that includes a 852 ><.

however lady luck never gave up on me and send me another 855, or maybe paged there by the bus company, which is driven by a chinese bus uncle who just love speeding and sharp breaks. Man was it a exciting ride trying to not fall over in a crowd bus. But really, the bus uncle shouldn't drive so fast,he could have easily cause an accident. =_=

一个平面的对角是多么遥远的距离，犹如平行线般无法相交。
思恋的涟漪荡过水平，渐远渐散。
次元隐藏了对角的真相，水平倾斜。
平衡一切的天平，是否要把一起扳回原状？
思恋不断，角度变更，平行亦可相遇。
无限不过是个文字游戏。

totally crazy luck swing today... from good luck til i cause bad luck to other and bad luck til i hurt myself.
what a day...

还有人要一起看“不能说的秘密”吗？8号2点哦……call我……

俄罗斯人的浪漫是冬天晒日光浴……
我的浪漫是夏天泡在温泉里……
俄罗斯人勇敢
我嘛……只是随性而已。

heavy downpour today. i sat in he loo entertaining myself by listen to the angry shouts of the soccer player downstair.
apparently someone up there does not like what theay are shouting about...
he drown their voices out... ^^
amen to them =D

the smoke outside is killing me!!! somebody save me!!! T.T

dreaming about enjoying spa... hot spring... and cooking myself... i just so need a pool of warm water to drown myself in...

It has been such a long time since i last experienced such an intense sense of desperation. And until then i never knew otah meant so much to me.
I was on my way out of the canteen when i saw them laying on a table, and i anxiously circle the table for quite a while looking for the owner as my inner demon tell me that i just got to have it!!!
Well, i managed to bought 2 went the vendor came... but i would just grab it and run if he haven't. if that wasn't bad enough, i hold on to them for at least 20 minutes before i finally ate them, during which i whacked several people over the head with my otah!
i apologize here to those who have suffered from my 'otah attack', but you got to agree with me that they smell really good and you don't get whacked by otah everyday.